Late Night Hurt.

   Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever learn from hurt.
I always here people say (including myself) "Oh, you know I've just been hurt in the past, thats the reason why...___"

Say that is the reason why your situation is the way it is. Say your hurt has altered your life.

Would that not gear us to live in a different direction? Would that not tell us to wake up and steer away from the hurt? 

Because 9 times out of 10 , we've been hurt by our own acts. Now OBVIOUSLY there are exceptions. People are evil and are literally out to ruin other peoples lives....

   But im talking about the "hurt" you know good and well wouldn't of happend if it weren't for that silly decision you made. That kind of hurt that if you followed what GOD SAID, and not what YOU WANTED, it would not even exist.

I wonder if we'll ever learn. In all seriousness. Will we ever step away from whats causing the most pain in our lives?  I dont know if this makes sense at all. But I'm just putting my thoughts out there...

    Today is church service, the speaker said a couple of things that really stuck with me.

He explained to us how prideful we can be when we are dealing with things in out lives (that are difficult) and we say  "Oh no God, this is just too big... way too big" We're telling Jesus that NO. Your blood is not enough to cover this (sin, hurt, pain, disease, etc). How prideful is that. When will we ever learn to drop the hurt, drop the pain, drop the pride, and give it to God and turn away from whatever is hurting us?

   Its just like repentance. To turn FROM sin and turn TO God.
   I believe a lot of times we (I) limit repentance to SIN. When in all honesty I believe it could work for anything that we're dealing with in life.

   If your dealing with ANYTHING and you are telling yourself that it's too much, and you feel its holding you back from being in a relationship with Christ, or even growing closer to him... Drop it. And TURN TO GOD. Repent. 

   Again, it's sort of funny how much that word can scare someone or give us the vision of sin. 

I am learning in my life that sometimes the reason I am so stuck in my walk with God at times, is because I'm forgetting to repent DAILY. Other than surrender and giving thanks, I am learning repentance is important too. Because I am believing that it is not just limited to sin...

  I guess its not necessarily "not limited to sin" but I guess im realizing more and more that as I deal with situations and conflicts in my life...AS I DEAL WITH THEM...I am sinning. 

You know why? Because I am taking control. Im not letting God handle it. That in itself is sin y'all.

   If I want to learn from the hurt in my life, this is it. Learning that God has ultimate control of everything. EVEN MY HURT...

Goodnight & God bless...